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[Yovana Mendoza Ayres (Rawvana) (Yovana):] Source: LYBIO.net
Hi, fam. Hey guys, I don’t think there was ever going to be the perfect time for me to make this video.
I definitely did not feel ready to talk about this or share it.
And first of all, I just want to say that I’m really, really sorry about the way that the news were communicated to you, how you had to find out.
I know that someone of you, you trust me, you listen to me and you probably feel deceived and lied to and you’re in your whole right to feel that. And for that I asked for forgiveness.
I’m human, I made a mistake and I was not planning on hiding this from you.
I was planning on telling you, but on my terms, on my time, it’s been a process, it’s still is, it’s still is difficult.
I’m still in the process of admitting and accepting to myself of the changes that I’ve had to make in my diet because of health reasons.
And in this video I want to share with you what got me to this point because it’s not just something that happened from one day to the next.
It’s something that has taken time for me to come to this point.
But before I start that, I just want to say; how much I stand for the plant-based diet and for veganism.
I believe it because I felt it. I’ve experienced it.
Six years ago, I adopted a raw vegan diet. I learned about this magnificent way of eating plants, let food be thy medicine and your medicine be your food.
All of these things I learned six years ago and they completely changed my life because of the – this plant-based diet and a veganism, I was able to overcome addiction like alcoholism and smoking cigarettes. I was able to gain a greater consciousness of who I am and my place in this world and the foods that I need in order to thrive and everything.
It’s just – it elevated my consciousness and body, mind, and spirit. And because of that is – because I decided to start a blog to start my Instagram page and my YouTube channel and share this with all of you, because I wanted to share this message, these good news, this thing that I found, I had felt so incredibly good and that’s how it all started.
So because of that, I’m also grateful to this lifestyle because of it wasn’t for that. It wouldn’t be here with you today. I wouldn’t have shared all the things that I’ve shared with you throughout the years.
I was vegan, completely vegan for over six years and it’s been two months since I started incorporating eggs and fish into my diet. And I’m just want to be completely honest and authentic and truthful with you guys today, that is just what I’ve been and I want to continue to be that transparent.
Before that, I just want to say that I believe in this diet that it can heal people. I believe that it’s an amazing diet that many people thrive on and that I have thrived on for years.
And something happened to me and my health that led me to have to try another thing, another solution to feel better. So I will get to that soon.
Okay, it all started six years ago. This was when I found out about the plant-based diet. I found out about the raw vegan diet, and that’s how my journey started.
I adopted raw veganism for the first two weeks, and I felt amazing. I did juice cleanses. I was feeling less anxiety. I didn’t want to drink. I didn’t want to smoke cigarettes. I was sleeping better. I was feeling better. I was looking better. My skin cleared. It was amazing. It was beautiful. It was – I had found a hidden gem and I didn’t know – why don’t people know about this? Why isn’t this information out there?
So, a few months into it, that’s when I decided to share my journey and I decided to share this.
At the beginning, this was just getting started on social media. This was 2013 so people were just starting to talk about raw veganism and veganism and plant-based diet on – you know – to the masses. And in Spanish, actually, there was really no one talking about this except for me for a long time.
So I started to find all these people that were doing this and I was like, ‘oh my gosh, this is amazing, like this is a lifestyle. This is a way of living. This is, yes’. And I was so motivated to keep on going, and I continued on my journey. And the more I continued, the more I got just involved into the lifestyle and I wanted to learn everything about it. I took courses. I became a health coach, certifications.
And I was really into this raw food, raw vegan diet. And just, I was getting into it, it was amazing.
And a year into my journey, I decided to do a 25-day water fast. So I fasted for 25 days. Yes, I only drank water for 25 days. I don’t know how I did it honestly, (hah) but I did it. And it’s been one of the most incredible experiences I’ve ever had in my life. And I felt like I resetted my whole body, I just felt amazing. I felt on top of the world. My energy levels were beyond. I was waking up every single day at 6:00 AM, going for runs. I was eating at the time a low fat raw vegan diet. But one thing that did happen after my water fast was that I lost my period. By this time, talking to other people who were in the movement were like, ‘no, it’s normal, it’s okay, you’re still ovulating, you’re just not bleeding’. I even thought that it was a good thing at one point.
So that went on for two years. I didn’t have my period for two years, until the end of 2015, was when I started looking more into it and talking to more people and reading about it, and I learned that not having a period is – is really not healthy, it’s not good for you. So I said, okay, well, I’m going to go and get checked and see what’s going on. So I went to some doctors, there are naturopathic doctors here in San Diego, and I began to get blood drawn out and tests. I did, I remember I did a urine test to check my hormone levels. And when I received the results, all my hormones were out of whack. Actually they were premenopausal like if I was a premenopausal woman, and this was really weird because I felt good physically, but the numbers were wrong and I wasn’t getting my period.
[Yovana Mendoza Ayres (Rawvana) (Rawvana English):] Source: LYBIO.net
What I’ve learned is that whenever there is disease in the body, it doesn’t just happen from one day to the next, it’s like a gradual thing. It’s – it’s a buildup of things that eventually you get something, you get a disease.
Even though at the time I was feeling fine and I was good physically and I had good energy levels, something was going on in my body that wasn’t right, and eventually it was going to catch up to me and eventually it was going to get worse.
So it took me a little bit to really understand that and see the seriousness about it and that I needed to do something about it now. Or I was going to pay for consequences later on.
So I began to change up my diet. I increased my fat levels. The doctor’s like, you need to eat more fat. I added salt into my diet because I needed minerals.
That’s around the same time when I started to eat cooked, they weren’t related – the two. I started to eat cooked because I was craving cooked food, but maybe it was also because something was going on in my body that was telling me like, ‘hey, you need more things, so’.
So then I started to eat more fats and added some cooked food. And within two months I got my period and I was really happy, but it was a very irregular. So I never knew when it was coming, some months it came, most months it did come and I would get my period for two to three days. So it was light and I just told to myself, it’s just my body healing, it’s going to take time. It was years that I didn’t have my period, so obviously my body needed time to heal. So I was patient with it. This was all of 2016.
And it was in 2017 in the middle towards kind of like September or something, when I stopped getting my period again in 2017, and it was around five months that I didn’t have my period. When I got to the point that I was like, okay, I need to like go and get checked again, like something’s going on, I’m not getting my period.
I think also a part of why I wasn’t getting my period it was the stress. So I get stressed very easily and I don’t think that helps at all and I don’t think that that has helped at all during this whole health journey that I’ve been in.
I went to get checked again, got blood drawn out, and I got back the results.
So by this point, my hormones were still not good. I wasn’t ovulating, I’m still not ovulating.
I was basically anemic and my thyroid levels were low. It wasn’t really bad, but it was borderline.
So the doctors, they recommended that I take testosterone and that I take a thyroid pill.
Ever since I started to go with them, they would always say, you need eggs and just eat some eggs and you’ll be fine. And I was like, no, I’m not going to eat eggs, like I can do it with the plant-based diet.
I always knew that doctors would recommend that, but I didn’t pay attention to it.
So the doctors was like – were like, you need to, first of all, you need to gain more weight. You need – take the testosterone, the thyroid medicine and the supplements and also it would really benefit you if you ate some eggs. So I was like, no, no, no. So I said, you know what, I am going to seek out some different information and talk to someone who actually understands my diet.
So I talked to a doctor and my friend who’s a nutritionist, she specializes in hormones. So I talked to both of them and told them what was going on and my symptoms and they said, ‘okay, what you need to do is get an iron supplements’. So I started to take iron, also ‘eat more protein’, ‘eat more fat’, like really track how much protein you’re getting. So I started to track my macros and around this time I was also talking to a friend who was giving me my workout plans and I was tracking my macros, trying to gain weight and gain muscle. And I was super motivated and I was like, ‘yes, this is going to do it. I’m going to get better’. And I was also taking some Chinese herbs to help me regulate my period.
So my goal was to gain around 6, 7 pounds. The doctors would mention a lot like, if you gain weight, a lot of the things that you have are going to get better. So gain weight. And so I was like, okay, I’m going to gain weight. And I did gain weight, I did. I gained around 6 pounds and I got my period back and this time it came back good, like I felt it different. This time it came back more regular in the sense that I was getting it every month and I was getting it a little bit more heavy than I was before. I was bleeding for around four days instead of two or three. I – I was really happy that I was getting my period consistently and it just felt really good.
So that was going well. And then during this time though, I was moving, so I was in San Diego moving to LA. I was unstable physically because I was moving from one place to the next. I lived in four places in three months. I was going back and forth through Airbnbs. And when I got my period was in April of 2018 when I moved into my apartment. So I think that had a big part in it because I was under stress because I wasn’t stable. And once I got to LA to that apartment, I feel like a lot of my stress went away and I got my period and I had been doing everything right. I was taking the supplements, I was eating more protein and fat. I was taking my herbs and working out and tracking my macros and making sure I was eating enough protein and I was feeling better and I gained the weight and I got my period. So I was like, okay, this is really good. I said, okay, now it’s – I think it’s time to get my hormones checked.
This was around June. I started to see a new doctor and she was a naturopath. She understood my diet more than the other doctors, which I really liked. I felt safe with her. And at that time I was feeling physically a little more tired. I was beginning to feel more tired. I think the beginning of 2018 was – there was like good things going on where I was getting my period, but at the same time, my energy levels were just not good, they were decreasing, which was kind of weird like I couldn’t – I would film a video and I will get – feel really tired after that, or even my workouts, I just took a lot more effort for me to get up and actually do them.
So I did notice that. But I didn’t really pay much attention to it. I always thought that it was – I was traveling too much, which I was traveling a lot. I was travelling, I probably wasn’t sleeping well, so I was like, okay, I’m going to maybe change my workouts. I never considered that too much at that point.
It was July of 2018 when two things happened to me.
One thing was starting to happen to me and one thing was another thing that happened to me. I got Candida and it wasn’t like a normal Candida. Usually you’ll get Candida in your gut and your intestine, but this was Vaginitis Candida, so I got Candida in my vagina. I know it’s so weird. I had never heard about it. And the way that I noticed it was because I was getting cuts on my vagina and it was really painful and I was really scared. So I went to see the doctor. And she – as soon as she saw me, she did a test. They did like a swab test to see what it was – and it was Candida.
So I did the Candida diet. So I started out with that and basically the Candida diet was a diet low in sugar, low in fruits. I completely eliminated Kombucha from my diet. I didn’t eat grains. I was basically just eating veggies and fats and tempeh. I was also taking some supplements and some herbs for that. And that went away quickly, which was really good. It went away in about a few weeks. The symptoms went away, but it was – it was bad. It was painful. And I was traveling during that time and it was just very uncomfortable. But I did get better, and then I went to get tested again and it was gone. So I was happy about that.
But around that time was when I was also starting to get some digestive issues, which is why I thought that I had Candida in my digestion, in my intestines and also vaginally because I was starting to experience these digestive issues. And these digestive issues were that I was getting very, very bloated from basically anything that I ate. I was feeling constipated. I was getting diarrhea. I was having a lot of gases and a lot of burps, but it was on a very small level. It wasn’t very big as how it eventually got to be.
I told my doctor about these symptoms that I was having and we already knew that I didn’t have Candida, so she said, I think you have SIBO.
This was like towards the end of the summer and which is really ironic because a lot of good things were happening in my life at that time. And I was getting – I just got engaged, I was getting married and it was like all these good things were happening, but then at the same time, physically I wasn’t feeling my best, which was unfortunate. But I think that all of the good things that I was feeling like where more than the bad thing that I was, like physically that I was feeling bad, so like, I paid attention to it. Obviously I was treating it, but I try not to put too much energy into it. I was focusing on getting healthier on doing what I needed to do and not worrying about it.
[Yovana Mendoza Ayres (Rawvana) (Rawvana English):] Source: LYBIO.net
So during this time while I was – before I got – I did the SIBO breath test. I was trying out different things, like I would try eating raw for a week and seeing how I felt and I thought that, okay, this is what I need to cleanse to just get reset my digestive system or I would do juice cleanses, I would do water fast, that was the best. I felt really good when I did water fasting because I wasn’t eating anything. I got to the point where I was – I just prefer not to eat because I was afraid – that anything that I would eat I would feel sick after it.
I also tried intermittent fasting. I said, okay, intermittent fasting is what I need to do. I tried that for a while and at the beginning it would work.
So I was just trying a lot of things and eventually I said to myself, I just need to just eat balanced. Just eat your protein, your fat and your carbs, just eat balance in every single meal.
Eventually, I did the SIBO breath test, it’s a test that you breathe and then it captures your breath. So I did that for two days. And the diet that you have to do to do that test is basically a protein and fat diet, like you can’t eat anything that is fiber. So I basically didn’t eat anything. I ate white rice, which is – that’s one thing that you could eat.
So I did that test. That was at the end of October, but I didn’t receive the results until early January because it took like 30 days for me to get the results back. But then Thanksgiving and Christmas came around and everyone was – you know – the doctor was gone, I was gone, and so I didn’t get my results until the beginning of January. By this whole time I was starting to feel desperate for my health and to find a solution around the summertime. And that’s when I started open up to the possibility of adding some animal product into my diet.
And it was really hard because for so long I saw this food, this animal food as something that is basically toxic for my body, something that I don’t need – that my body doesn’t need. And to see it as something that it could heal me, it was really hard for me to – it’s still is hard for me to accept and admit or even consider at the time, but I was warming up to the idea of it. I hadn’t even received my SIBO test results. I hadn’t even – I had gone through the Candida. I had gone through the – I was starting to go through the bloating issues and that’s when I started to consider it.
When I received my SIBO test results, which was early this year, January, 2019 I was relieved to be honest that I knew what I had, I knew that I had SIBO, but at the same time I was confused on what to do. I didn’t know.
I wanted to do the right thing for my health to be honest. I thought about the future. I thought about if that if I don’t take care of my health now, what’s going to happen. It’s going to – you know, come at me harder. I thought about the fact that I am a woman and I want to bring a baby into this world. I want to have a family. If I’m not good, then how can I expect to bring a child into this world?
All of these things were going on in my mind and thinking of the reasons why I wouldn’t eat animal. And it’s because I have stood so strongly besides the plant-based lifestyle.
So when I received the results, I had already been researching about SIBO. I already knew what you needed to do to heal SIBO. And this doctor, I really like her because she never pushed eating animal. And that I think really helped because whenever someone pushed that to me, I felt very defensive. She said, you have two options; one is you can follow your vegan diet. These are the foods that you can eat. So the SIBO restricted diet, the one that you have to follow for the first four to six weeks is a very restricted diet. You can basically only eat from veggies, it’s bok choy, eggplant, kale, carrots, and a few other veggies. Other veggies you can eat them but on measured amounts and some nuts and seeds, no fruits, no potatoes, no sweet potatoes, no legumes, no grains and protein, animal protein and fats.
So she said this is the diet. And I looked at it and I was like, okay, well, I would not be able to survive on that diet if I was eating plant-based because it was basically just kale and I wouldn’t be able to survive on kale, I would only worsen my diet. She said you can follow this and take this powder, it’s a supplement that you take and you substitute it for breakfast, lunch, and dinner or whenever you’re hungry, you just drank this powder. By this time I’ve taken a lot of supplements, a lot of supplements. There was one point when I was carrying around a big bag of supplements everywhere and I eventually stopped taking those supplements because I felt like they weren’t doing anything to me. And then I would get tests and nothing would change.
Anyways, I was researching on the best brands, the ones that I will absorb better, taking different things that – I know that if I take vitamin C I can absorb certain minerals better.
[Yovana Mendoza Ayres (Rawvana) (Rawvana English):] Source: LYBIO.net
So I was pretty much sick of just taking powders and taking supplements. I didn’t want to do it like that. And the other option was following the SIBO diet and adding some animal protein into my diet to substitute what I wasn’t able to eat. Because basically what happens when you have SIBO is that your body can’t digest fiber. And as you know, the plant-based diet is mainly focused on fiber. Everything has fiber and fiber is really good, but when you have SIBO, fiber is really bad for you and your body can’t process it, which is why I was feeling so bloated and I was having indigestion and diarrhea – whenever I ate anything because it was full of fiber and my body couldn’t take it.
So this was my reality and it was like for me being in that moment, I was like, okay, this is real, like this is really happening to me. It’s not something that I can just ignore. It’s not something that I can just let pass by. It’s here, it’s present, and if I don’t do anything about it, then I’m going to be getting the same results.
So I gave myself the opportunity to try something else to experiment and this was really hard because of what I believed for so long because of what I’ve preached for so long because of the responsibility that I feel as someone who has a voice and who speaks. I decided to put my health first, for a while I hadn’t put it first and I wasn’t considering all of the options and for me it was now an option, I was seeing it as an option.
And that’s exactly why hadn’t shared it with you because for me it’s still an experiment. For me, it’s still a process. I’m still figuring it out. I’m not going to sit here in front of the camera and tell you like, oh, I been eating eggs and fish for the past two months and everything is better and everything is good and the plant-based diet doesn’t work. No, I’m not saying that at all.
I’m saying that I’m trying to figure it out and I want to, I really want to be able to go back to eating plant-based.
I want to be able to just feel that good from eating plants and be a testament to that. It’s been really hard for me to accept and admit it.
So that was two months ago and for the first three weeks I kind of following the diet.
First of all, it was difficult for me to eat that because I felt a lot of guilt and shame and even just the tastes and the textures of it. I wasn’t – it’s not something that I really enjoyed or was into, but I was seeing it as medicine.
In the past I never ate eggs like I never liked eggs. And thinking about where they were coming from. Of course, I was sourcing them locally and organic and cage free and pasture raised and really researching on what I was buying and what I was eating. So that was the first three weeks.
And then I found a doctor who, she’s a plant-based and is a gastroenterologist. So I went to see her and I wanted to see what she had to say about SIBO and what diet to follow and what protocol. And she suggested to take the antibiotics and to follow a vegan diet. Throughout this whole time I haven’t taken antibiotics because I want to heal the most natural way.
Antibiotics; I don’t – I believe that they don’t go to the root of the problem. They will relieve my symptoms, but they’re not going to get to the root of a problem. So, you know – as I said, I’m still in this process, this experimental phase, and maybe I will be open to taking antibiotics, but I didn’t want that to be my first option.
So she recommended that and she said, you can eat anything. The SIBO diet is – what the – it’s not true. You can follow a vegan diet, just don’t eat fruit, no raw, and that’s it, so that’s what I did.
So for the next two weeks I was like, okay, I can eat vegan, like maybe it’s all in my head. And so I eat, I started to eat 100% plant-based, which was a lot of fiber foods. Again, I wasn’t eating any gluten, that’s something that she recommended. The symptoms came back even worse.
One of the weeks, it was around five days that I was constipated. I literally did not go to the bathroom for five days. It’s when you feel bloated and I mean you can’t go to the bathroom or you have diarrhea, it’s not just something that you feel there in your digestive system. It’s something that affects your everything. It affected my mind. My mind felt foggy. I didn’t have energy. It affected everything, my mood. This was when it was getting bad. And I’m a positive person, I always try to stay positive and look at the positive things, but it got to a point where I thought that maybe it was stress, but it was obvious that everything that I ate, whenever I ate it, I just felt sick.
So I went back to the diet. I went back to the SIBO diet. And it’s been about a month now that I’ve been – or less than a month, it hasn’t even been that long, that I’ve been following it to the T like very good.
First week I was feeling a little bit better. It was – it didn’t even take that long. It only took like five days for me to actually feel better. But two weeks ago was when I really, really, really started to feel a lot better. I’m feeling like myself again. I feel energy again. I feel good. I don’t feel bloated. I feel – I could go to the bathroom once or twice a day and it’s just been amazing, like I’m so grateful for that.
[Yovana Mendoza Ayres (Rawvana) (Rawvana English):] Source: LYBIO.net
And that is where I’m at right now. I wanted to share this video with you and just be honest and upfront and tell you exactly what is going on. This is what is going on.
I wish and my hope is to be able to go back and eat the way that I love to eat.
I am grateful for this opportunity to improve my health. I’m grateful for taking the route of self love. And I feel that I’m doing this out of self love because I want to be better, because I want to be healthy and because if I’m not healthy, then I have nothing to give to this world. We came to here to serve and how can I do it if I don’t have health, if I don’t feel good?
So essentially that’s – that’s what I’ve done. I’ve taken emergency measures and this is what I had to do. It’s not something that I wanted to do. Another thing I want to say is that this is my personal experience. This is my body. Something that I’ve learned is that every body is different. We all go through different things. We all need different things in different stages of our life and I’ve learned how important it is to be healthy and to put my health first.
I just want to say that this has not been easy for me. It’s been very hard for me.
What is going to happen with me, with Rawvana?
I want to share my journey. I love sharing my journey with you. I feel that everything that happened in my life is for a reason and I feel that it’s to share and with the hope that it can help someone out there and maybe someone out there is going through what I’ve been going through.
And I hope that this video also marks a difference in myself and my channel. There’s so many things that I feel sometimes I don’t share because I’m afraid of what people will think, including this video.
I want to be stronger in my voice and what I believe in and be more upfront and honest, and I want to be more upfront with you and clear.
I think being in a relationship has really helped me with learning how to do that and how to communicate and talk about everything that I think and how I feel. And I want to do that with you too because I feel a connection with you guys. It’s been so many years that I’ve been here and you are a big part of my life. And I see you as friends, I see you as – I know that you are a person, a human being behind the screen and we are all human.
I want to really listen to my body and I want to be a testament of health and pass on the message of health and of love you.
Thank you – thank you for listening, and thank you for watching, and thank you for hearing me out. And thank you to all the people that have messaged me in support.
I have honestly not even gone on social media to see the comments.
I was just focusing on this video and to be as authentic and open as I can possibly be and for you to truly feel that from me.
And I know that it’s going to take time for my body to heal and I’m going to be patient with that and I would love to share more of what I’m doing to heal and the process of how I’m feeling.
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No judgments and be able to openly say, you know what, right now I’m not feeling good and this is what is happening or right now I’m feeling really good and this is what is working for me, or this is not working for me without judgment.
I really want that – and I think all the people that provide that safe space for me to do that here.
I love you so much. I love you. I only wish the best for you, for me, for everyone. I’m so grateful to have you in my life and I will see you on the next video. Bye.
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